Made In His Image

Yes, I have a god complex.

Because I know things. Because I’m right.

I know that laughter is not a medicine, it’s a result. I know that the best things in life don’t fit into clichés. I know that the most potent things that make me, me, will never fit into an expression that is less than my entire life. I know that that we are most capable of doing what we believe in, and that there are only two things that we cannot fail at: Living and dying. I know that advice for existence is voluntary, and that all things in life are equal part meaningful and meaningless.

I know that the concept of an illusion is the only real illusion. I know that we can do the fantastic, and the impossible; that the concept of limit is only a safety line we drew in the sand.

I know, fundamentally, that if anyone has even an influence on what you can or cannot do, you should tell them to fuck off. I know that you should not hesitate to be who you want to be, and I know that there will be consequences for doing so. But there are consequences for not doing so too, and I know they are much, much worse. I know it’s the interest payments that hurt you more than the debt.

I know you are an incredible person, beyond measure.

Ask me again, and I will tell you again.

I also know that if you’re not reading this with some inspirational music in the background, you’re not reading it right.

Men may think about sex more than women, but I know that everyone thinks about pleasure. I know that pleasure itself is harmless and holy. Because the best love letter I ever wrote was to a woman that I’d never dated. The best intercourse I’ve ever had was with a woman I’ve never fucked. And the best fuck I’ve ever had was with a woman I haven’t seen yet.

I know that real love can’t hurt me, no matter its form. And I know that the best love doesn’t come with a wedding day.

The wise say you can’t eat love. The wiser know that love doesn’t need to eat. I know I’m not wise, but I do know that.

I know that you can use evil for good, and good for evil. And I know that you never have to. I know, deep within the fibre of my being that being moral doesn’t mean being square, or boring, or staying away from taboo topics. Being honest and being earnest does not qualify one for being condemned, no matter what the subject. It just qualifies them for possibly being wrong. Being moral means being alive while you are living. Any other provisions are merely riding ethical coattails.

I know we’re all wrong at some point. I’m certain when I am most wrong I think I am right. I never let that get in the way.

Sometimes, it just feels good to whoop a guy at their favourite game. I know that there doesn't need to be anything more to it than that.

I know that alcohol and hot-cocoa can serve the same purpose. Whoever first put them both together was the first interdisciplinary student in happiness and understanding. And while we compose our own cocktails, we ought to remember that everything ferments in the same way, even if not in the same place or with the same flavour. I know that every drink can be the best we’ve ever had.

I know that sometimes a pursuit of truth takes us outside of the classroom and the protester’s rally, and into the arms of another under a warm blanket. And I know that won’t happen on its own. We have to will it, as well as wanting it.

I know that somewhere, deep in my heart, I feel the need to be understood. And I know the whole world could.

And when I understand myself, I know that I need to dance. And sing.

And laugh.

Then I know I’m a god.

- Z